Goin to china

i told Ky i am goin to china soon she was so sad the tear kept on droping haiz then she told her mom ZzzZzZZzz the funny part her mom asked her izit want to go as well lol

MEANINGLESS TO WAIT

haiz on the valentine eve i sent her a msg but no reply
since she said we are still fren but why she like this oh well forget it painful day

WOW 1ST DAY RETURN TO SECONDARY SCHOOL QUESTION AM I WIF HER BREAK UP

Once i reach to my old school i saw my schoolmate the 1st question they throw at me was u 2 break already? what the reason? i try to avoid but they ask again so wat to do simply answer them watever they say i juz nod my head haiz small matter but whole world looking at it pretty bored rite???

NTG SEEM TO MATTER ANYMORE

Sound familiar to this topic?? when u in my mood u will understand ntg seem to matter anymore. Life is ntg but a lifeless shadow it follow where u go and it appear where the light shine upon you, but shadow is juz an image shadow cant feel anything like we go. Time pass and go the world will keep spining for other it wount stop for you, but if i could i would stop where the time i m wif you i would not let it spin coz i miss those moment ever single sec i `ve remember it and i craft it to my heart. The world is round the sea are wide there are million of people but in the million i only love you. Lovely valentine apporaching i m still a lonely guy who stuck in his own fantasy about you r still there......................................

HAIZ WHY IT HAS TO END LIKE THIS???

Yesterday Ms.Y was looking for me but I was AFK so this morning I rush out and reload to sms her. It was bad news I was frame for the thing i dint do. She said she receive a email said that I said her a playgirl and I still love her well there only 1 part is rite that is i stll love her. Then she said she send me a email long time ago i just know haiz (i guess u made up your mind bout it n i think nothing i say can change ur mind, but i juz wan u 2 noe when im with u i noe dat i love u very much n dats very important to me bcoz i never felt love when i was in a relationship before i met u n i noe we argue alot but i felt jealous over my bf for d first time n i was so mad at u i cried which is another first for men i also skipped class for my bf, sum1 finally managed to force me to play bowling n alot more u really r n was important to me. u helped me grow from a girl whu scratch her scars to a gal whu still leave scars alone to heali noe i told u b4 but i have to tel u for one last timei really really love u i think i still will for awhile n i noe i will take especially long to get over dis but i juz need to let u noe u were my dream come true although u r not handsome or smart but seriously...u succesfully started my engine) that wat the email al about

Poem

You are as beautiful as roses, you are as charming as a princess, only the beauty of the nature, can compare with you, my dad can teach me how to love the others, my teachers can explain what is love to me, cupids can only give love to me, but only you can let me know what is love and beloved. The lovely valentine is coming, what we been thru, is not a dream nor fake, it is as real as my love for you are forever, we are close yet we can't touch, we can feel yet we can't see, that what we call love. Thou we can't see it nor touch it, we still wants it, just like what we been thru, if my love to you has a limit, woh siang, ai ni yi wan nien. I wish you Happy Valentine and wish you & your valentine have a pleasant Valentine Day

Fever sad haiz

TIRED DAY

Dint sleep at all coz ply games in the midnite til 7am then nid to fetch my grandpa to KL sentral to take train back to home town >.<>.< watch 2 movie pretty boring but better than stay at home hehehe wow this Cny use all money woot (mostly gamble) Bz Bz Bz College flunk woot dint think got the chance to go to next semester haiz time to find new college. Now i only knew that i cheaper than 1 cent i m not even worth 1 cent mayb i knew but i ignore it but thx anyway now i will accept it that

Shud i send this to Ms.Y on Valentine day????

Everyday I been wondering what had happen to us why we in such situation. Do you recall I used to call you Kungfu Panda but I no longer call you that name ever since we couple. We used to laugh over smallest matter and I always sent you poems but we no longer smile nor laugh yet we argue over smallest matter and I no longer send you poems when we couple. Both of us pretty sad when we argue yet we still argue. We never argue when we are not couple. We can always agree on the same thing but not when we are couple. Why we can do it in the past but not in the present does your feelings toward me had fade ? I can only tell you that I never fed up and my feelings toward you never fade but Kept growing stronger. I remember that you once asked me do you noe I got a boyfriend and I answered you I do. That time I were very really scare you will Straight away reject me . When Chester farewell party they suprised that I suggested to call you to come along and I went and fetch you I droped Chester at Ts I called him go alone coz I want to fetch you juz you and me. When you holded me at that nite how I wish I can stop that moment forever and ever that nite was the nite that I've decided fe tell you how I felt for you despite that I've heard they said Tery name out. When you cried that day that you argued with him I can do ntg except stand aside and watch. When you always in troubles I always can't help u I always stand aside and watch or I dint even knew u got problem nor troubles. Am I a failure? Am I a bad bf? I the 1 who always argue wif you over smallest mattter I the 1 who ask for this to happen I deserved it I juz realize that. You warn me but I dint get it I now knew u always bad mood when see me coz I too bossy and no longer try listen to u. When you said that you no time for me and wasting my time u were wrg is not time we need is love wat we really need. Because we argued a lot we already forgot wat the sweet memory that we shared your 1st kiss my 1st real girlfriend my girl that I really love. I also realize that when you with me you re very stress. Am I too selfish? Or im the real 1 who no time for you? Times come and goes, each day we passed we are further apart, yet we are looking in the same blue skies, the earth wount survive without it inhabited, as our love can't survive without us, living things had shared something in common that is breath h2o, we once had shared something in common that is we are lover, is nature that earth is sphere nth can change the fact, the fact is I can't stop myself from loving you, is nature human is the environment destroyers, same as I destroyed our relationship, human had change they now go green to save earth, so am I, i've had self conscious and I’ve knew that I m wrg.

SPEACHLESS

Everyday i cared for her yet she said that im iritating. I told that to take care of herself yet she told me tat she lived in this planet for 17 years without me She no need me too remind her. Am I wrong to told her to take care am I wrg to msg her? I was when i saw that msg. I dont noe what to react base on that msg from that day onward i dont dare to msg her ever again Ms.Y

My lost love

30/01/09
Ms.Y (2:37 PM) I luv u oso. Im sori that was the most sweet msg that I received At night I ply Mahjong ,I won alot that day So I quite happy but happy feeling soon fade because I called my gal and she told me that need to break up coz now she not suitable to couple. She also said that she dint want to waste my time so that I can find a better girls compare to her. What was that how come it turn out to be like æ this she still ask why I no reaction. What reaction she want should I be happy about it did she know how hurt and sad I were at that time. Almost what I did also for her yet she never praise me not even abit of appreciation. I understand she can't spend much time with me with NS and her studies everytime she also can't out last time I will mad but I changed I wount mad but some time disappointed. Couple of time she can't make it I juz said it ok. Now she want break coz not suitable does she care my feelings?
31/01/09
midnight I still pretty blur from the news that me and her just broke up even this not the 1st time but it was the sadest ever. Then I find 1 of my fren to go out and relax at pavillion drank couple of beers then we went for movie underground 3 rise of lycan then in the movie my fren kissed me both of us pretty shy then we go mamak stall to had a drink. In the morning I tried to control my emotions as best as I can. Both of our parents knew we couple. At night I go ply æ mahjong as usual and drank alot.
01/02/09
I woke up then need to get ready to go for lunch with family and relative I knew everyone were curious why I am like a lifeless zombie. After the lunch I were forced to go sungai wang with my parents. Then I went to cc with my friends. Everyone congrazt me that I and her had broke up. My heart felt like been stroke by lightning as they kept talk bad about her.
02/02/09
Midnight I came home and wish my parents had a save journey to china. In the morning it was KY birthday then we went out. Couple of things happened during that day KY was jealous about JL. It was a happy day I guess but I can no longer feel happy or joy anymore now I can only feel the sorrow and sadness. In the night I were badly drunk.
03/02/09
I woke up to went to school then I notice I were sick and I rush home rest then my aunt came over then I had a dream about Ms.Y Called me in the dream I can felt that happiness fill in my heart in the dream I also check izzit her calling me then I kept repeat call her name then I said it juz a dream it really was juz a dream. Everytime I and her broke up I sure dream bout her. That was it I can no longer hide my emotions I cried and cried and for what there is nothing can I can do to undo what had been done. Not only that now I crazy until I can wrote diary there the only place I can express my feelings.